I just got out a long term relationship, with someone who i thought i could trust. I did not start out with that opinion, but at a certain time in a relationship, for it to go further you have to become vulnerable and that's what i did. Expecting that in return. I mean usually people only ask for what they are willing to give back to someone. At least that is what i thought. Not only did i break down and become vulnerable, which for me is HUGE, I get betrayed by the person for whom i let my walls down. That's just a slap in the fucking face. It has ruined any and all faith i have in people.
To be dumped in general is a shitty experience to go through, especially if you genuinely had emotions involved not just the fake running a game on someone. But lets just add being dumped on your birthday, and then be given only bull shit answers and reasons as to why you are being dumped on your birthday. So you are left with this mind fuck of emotions, and questions, and wondering what could you of possibly done wrong. Now that is a shitty gift. A gift that keeps on giving. That's what i would call that. So everyday it festers in your head and you relive every moment leading up to that point and dissecting it to see if you could see any signs of it, or maybe see what you could of done different. I mean to be told that you are "to good of a person to be with someone like me" is total bullshit. That is the ultimate lazy ass cop out of an excuse. I mean shit, i think that it would of been easier to handle, if i was just told that i am just not into you, or i am over you, or the infatuation is over, i mean shit i would of been mad and probably thrown a punch, but still i would of gotten over that. It's a real truthful statement and really isn't truth the only thing people want from their significant others.
Then to add to that, adding this statement, " i want you in my life, i want to be your best friend, and i want you to be mine." HAHAHAHAH.....are you kidding with this shit? You dump me on my birthday, you ruin all faith i have in people, you mind fuck me, and you want to be "Best friends" with me? Now that is some crazy bullshit. I would rather you come after me with razor blades and lemon juice. Last time i checked "friends" don't make "friends" feel disposable, and friends are truthful with each other. Friendship is what all relationships should be based off of. Friends don't fuck friends over. That's just not how it works.
When are people going to wake up and see that, loyalty, trust, and respect are important qualities in other people. Not fake, small talk, social climbing, unemotional bullshit. Just mean what you say and say what you mean. That's really not so damn difficult and if you cant tell the truth then don't bother being any one's "friend", or significant other.
Ari
"Live, Learn and have faith.....Maybe"
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